Self-Discovery: Forgive, but don't forget



I've been in this particular mood...I don't really know how to explain it, but I've just been feeling some type of way recently. My junior year of high school will soon be over with, and I thank God. This school year was stressful in so many ways. I have started college planning, and I am currently stressing about the ACTs. I took the SATs before it was modified, and I hated it; now I am focused on doing well on the ACTs because if I don't, then I will not get into my top school. Also, exams are really close and I am procrastinating so much. I told myself that I would work on my time management, but that isn't working out so well.

I'm in a "I am so sick and tired of the negativity that surrounds me" type of mood right now. I guess that is the best way to describe it, but I can't talk about it with certain friends because they would never understand. I have mentally matured this school year; I know which people are my friends and which are not. I had to let go of a few friends just for me to be happy. I am tired of wasting my time, and energy, having forced interactions with people who clearly do not deserve my time. Therefore, I have set a goal to just focus on my self this summer and next school year. I am going to be a senior, and I do not have time to deal with any drama whatsoever. I give people so much of my attention to the point where I do not care for myself. So from now on, I am going to exclude those people silently from my life. In the end, all I have is me, myself, and I.

                                                                            -AK

Aisha Konneh

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  1. Good luck with your exams
    And it takes courage to cut energy vampires out-of your life but sometimes so necessary. It's good self care x

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    1. Thank you so much Aida. I'm really focused on taking care of myself this summer. I feel like I owe myself that. Thanks for reading! ♡

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  2. Lovely photo and post :) It kind of reminded me of some stuff that I've been thinking about. I really need to do things for myself, since I've noticed that I tend to do a lot of things for others and when I do stuff for myself, I always feel the need to justify it for some reason. Great post, it really resonated with me :) xo

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    1. I am the exact same way. I care too much for people, which may seem amazing but really it is not. I need time to just take care of myself for a while because now I know that some of my "friends" don't know how to be real friends. I'm glad this post moved you, and thanks for reading. ♡

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